Sunday, October 26, 2008

my joy ride in a KSRTC bus...

Of all means of traveling to Cochin, my favorite happens to be by the KSRTC buses.
Those buses in red and yellow, green or blue colour. The most attractive part of these kinda buses is that they have only "ONE" door, for both entry and exit. This fact makes it all the more exciting for people (men and women) who love the art of "touching'', "grooping", and such other activities "interesting" .
Get into a crowded bus (no other option during peak hours, and weekends) and u're seriously done for life.
Yesterday was one such day(saturday, 9:30 am). The bus was- as- xpected-crowded.
I was standing next to the womens section of the bus (to keep myself safe from whatever my mom had warned me ). Sadly though, the bus kept taking in more ppl tahn it could hold, and men started infiltrating into where i was standing. I dont have enuf guts in me to explain what happened next. I dont even know if it was a man or a woman.And felt like something had like blocked my larynx, i cud nt evn squeak! All i wanted to do at that point was to get out and puke out the disgust. Wonder if i'm pregnant!!
Christ, being a girl is so difficult and traumatic. and im so small too, wonder whats it like for the "girlier'' girls!. If these people(touch-maniacs, i wud call them) wanted to touch and fondle someone so badly cant they just get married to big sized bithches!!! ughm!!
Thats it for now, ill keep on adding new stuff as it happens to me or someone i know.
I can feel the warm bile rising up my throat now...!

Thursday, October 23, 2008


aah, i hate kids..., God who even named those squirmy creatures "kids"...
How can the once so-cute babies transform(or grow up) into such blood sucking monsters??!!!
The word kid by itself is cyooot, but the minute i get to "meet" one of the specimens in the sub-species " kids" i totally completely freak off...
They scream, and hit and bite u and u are expected to stay in control and not hit them back!!!
Tell me, is this a fair world???
There are some who want to get right into my nerves, i think that they do realize that they're irritating me, and that probably gives them they drive for the next 2 hours!!!
There are yet others who just madly rush into my room, pick up everything pickable and start throwing them around, and i have no other option than to stay smilin at them.
My neighbour has 2 kids, both of them well behaved cute lill angels! i just have to hear their voice and i squamble for cover, kinda hide-or-die situation!
Its during such "alwaiz wanna avoid" situations that ppl invent survival or evolutionary tactics like bathing or sleeping for an unlimited period . Alwaiz feel like bundling them up and throwing them away.Y cant some child-picker come steal them and sell them in some meat shop!!
( i know, i'm a bad mean girl)
The artistiaclly inclined ones are my favourite kind.They can draw and scribble and throw paint and nail polish on the floor, my records, and books that cost me a fortune (Rs 300)., with their moms standing by proudly watching their offsprings express themselves!!
The wierdest thing is that my mom tells me that i too would find these "things" cute, when i have dozen!! of my own.
wonder if its even worth a try.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

phantom dance of my life!!!

why are we born into this world?? ha ha.. nice question...
fulfill our duties, destiny, merely a stupid game played by god, as some others wud give in..
i seriously dont have an answer. ok, i'm feeling down and terribly depressed now(dont know if its not bad confessing).
i mean, whats the big deal, just put an end to all this, do something to end up in mere oblivion!!
i tell myself, okay meril, think of something nice, do something "useful"..
ha ha again., if i cud do that. then y am i here, using full force on my keyboard???
am i depressed or am i crazy??

meet the bitch

The names meril. Confirmed hard core super bitch!!!
Me as i know... was hard figurin out so much..


most of the time i'm confused about a whole lotta stuff..
and when i'm not, i'd think that i'm the world's smartest... but then some idiot has to come my way and confuse me all the more!!
in the end... I'm alwaiz confused..
hey,, that does not mean that i'm stupid, just that i'm confused!!
And, i have this remarkable ability to confuse people around me too!!
so, its kinda "confyoosing" to have me around..


i can be the like the text book definition of a sweet cutie girl. fun to be with.
happy go lucky, i do smile a loot (kinda nasty smile dho
i laaav playing pranks, and getting ppl into trouble , kinda derive joy outta it.. , laav trying out weird stuff , whateva it maybe..
i like runnin around doing something, making myself useful is the last thing i'd do..


for relationships that have survived the 1st 2 parts of my ever changing character, the third one is tuf..
it cud be equivalent to purgatory., cuz i happen to be the real mean mean mean girl who can kill u wid my tongue lashings...
the "gloomy" days are another story, cuz i can be soo gloomy and depressed that''ll break your nerves.. and i'm a branded "angry girl". . very demanding and possessive.

There are very few hu've survived ,a nd are still hanging on..